Time of wake: 8:30AM
Hours of sleep: 5hrs Interrupted
Hours of naps: 5hrs
Time of sleep: N/A
Current weight: 239.2 lbs
Goal weight: 130lbs
My mood: Content, Optimistic, Relaxed
My sleep was interrupted this morning. I wish it hadn't been because my alarm was very irritating as I hit the snooze. Took care of my morning responsibility and proceeded to take my daily supplements: "Green" Vitamin (where you get all the essential vitamins and minerals found in green veggies), Kelp (thyroid support), Vitamin D3 (immunity support because I don't get enough sun), Vitamin B complex + B12, and Chlorella. I also start my day off with an Apple Cider Vinegar + Honey tea every morning because I have a lot of phlegm (for like the past 2 years) and this is apparently the remedy. So far so good! I've been coughing up a lot every since I began my ACV+honey treatment. Somedays there's so much that I feel like I'm drowning... I'm like gasping for air. It was scary at first but I read that it's normal to cough it up. It's better out than in!
All this phlegm in my body is obviously a result of the food I eat and the inactive life I've been leading. And all of that is due to my stress and anxiety that has finally taken over me.
My stress revolving around relationships and situationships, that's why I'm taking so many supplements that counteract this problem. Naturally, I'm really hard on myself which adds on to my difficulties. But I think that has to do with my upbringing; my parents were very hard on me and had extremely high academic expectations. At one point in my early 20s, I've reached my breaking point, where I'm completely shattered, lack focus and trying to find my ambitious self that I once was. I can admit that people envy my resilience and wish for my down fall but without sounding egotistical nor self delusional, I want to let you know that I suffer from Ayn and Hasd. I will inshaAllah go in to details about it another time.
Today I did a heavy round of spiritual cleansing by listening to roqia. And I fell asleep while listening to it. LOL. I know for a fact I won't be able to sleep later on tonight.
Take Care & InshaAllah Khair
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