Preparations for Departure

Whenever there's a drastic change in my life, I tend to get stressed out and have a series of panic as well as anxiety attacks.  In the special case of me, emmigrating the country, to InshaAllah live in KSA, presents a stress at a whole new level: There's no panic, no anxiety yet.  It's not so much about the things I have to bring, it is the paper work that needs to be done.  I don't understand why but when I comes to doing paper work, I get stressed.  Maybe it is because I fear making a mistake and I have to start all over again OR that mistake will be taken out of context and I will be viewed as a fraud. LOL.  Essentially if the paper work doesn't go through, my world will crumble.

I've already decided where my things will go.  It's very simple: My friends will get the bulk of my things & the rest will be given away. 

All I want to keep safe are my books.  I can't seem to detach myself from them.  What I take with me is very simple: my prayer mat, sewing machine & materials, my nice clothes, jewelry, BASIC hair & makeup essential and face products, running shoes, yoga mat and foam roller.  I could pack everything up right now and I'll be done in 2 to 3 suitcases.  I'm literally looking around my room at things I can live without.  It's amazing how I can just let go of the majority of my possessions without looking back.  Starting a new life means fresh start and new everything.

But what about me?  I've made decisions for the materialistic side of me... What about myself as a person?  I need a new look!  I need to whip myself back in shape.  A new begin calls for a new me, right? ABSOLUTELY!  I need to utilize my exercise equipment to its fullest before I leave.  Now there are many different diets I could do in order to lose weight fast for example Juicing.  Juicing is quick and effective and healthy if you consume the right amount of juice.  But I'm not about to do juicing because I recently just given away my juicer to a Sister in need.  So I will eat health plant-based foods and lose what ever I can from that inshaAllah.  I can alway do juicing in KSA lol.

I have a lot of things I need to do, like finish my Hijama Practitioner Course and get my certification, Learn basics of Arabic so that I can have a decent conversation with my mother in law.  So now I have a very busy schedule that I need to make and stick too.  It's sounds easy but in actuality it is not. Let's keep in mind that I will still be work here in Canada until my employers fire me.  Yes, I want them to fire me off because it's easier that way for me.  I work well under pressure and if I'm at home all day I can focus on my health objectives, packing, praying and learning.  Ya ya I know I need money but Allah is Al-Rizaq (The Provider) and besides I'm married.  I just want to help out and make things easier on myself and my new family.

Take Care & InshaAllah Khair

Duni